chaos-distorted-conflict-before-eid disorder...

Assalamualaikum...

pheww... ok it has been a bit long time though to write this blog... ok, so basically bru habis exam... and baru balik umah utk cuti raye... (org lain balik 1 hb aku balik 3 hb, nk buat camne???) habis je exam hari tu sume tepuk tgn beria kot... mengalahkan budak fastrack yg habis final sem dua diorg ( ye la sbb lepas nie lps msk usm trus)... yg aku kat tgh tgh dewan tu muka, err...

x pun...

okay senang ckp aku x ade perasaanla.... sbnrnya aku dh x larat giler dowh waktu tu, x masuk lg rse mengantuk,  nasib baik x tido wktu exam bio tu... by the same time, hari tu hari sume org balik raye... aku kan balik lmbt... nawwar dh guling guling memekak sblh aku, "nad! nak balik! nak balik!" (sbb kitorg je yg gatal balik 3hb) yg lain, lps exam tnye...

1. golongan yg x tau ape ape...

"ko sakit ke?"

"ko kenape... snyumla skit kn nk balik...?"

2. yg nie lg la... golongan yg membuat cubaan nk men'jeles'kan aku... tp x dpt.. heh, sory guys, wrong personla... 

 "bye!!! jage diri!!! aku dh nk balik dh nie... jaga kolej... n jgn fly..."

aku pun balas la ngan muka x de perasaan... ye lah, dh x de perasaan buatla cara x de perasaan...

"jgn risau, aku x kan bakar kolej nie tp... yg terakhir tu aku x sure... heh... dh gi balik" 

roomate aku, farrah lg la... cheh jnji nk bukak warung kedai kopi dgn aku, nawwar n najwa tp tula... jnji melayu biasela...

"aku x jd balik kul lima, bapak aku dh bertolak... nk sampai dlm kul 2 lebh nnti"

aku pun...

"farrah!! ko mungkir jnji ek??!! munafik!!!"

dia pun start la dgn drama dia...

"jgn!! aku bkn munafik!! btw, bye nad... jaga diri tau... hihih... nad, tgk nie tgk nie... bye, aku nk balik nie... (tunjuk beg die n snyuman die yg 'menawan' tu)"

"farrah, cube ko pandang muka aku..."

aku tunjukla muka seperti di bawah...

"kejam!!! heartless!!! emotionless!!! expressionless!!!" bak kate farrah... heh...

3. and nie gologan yg baik la... (adela jgk yg baik)

miza n the gang...

"korg take care tau dok sini... dhla dua org je satu aras... jgn x bgn plak pg sabtu tu... nk aku kejut ke??"

"eh, x pe miza x pe..."

ohh, baik sungguh hati mu miza... hihihi...

ok, actually kalo korg bace nie (KALAU ek??) mesti ade peliks knp aku jd mcm nie...(sbnrnye aku mmg mcm nie, x de perasaan selalunye... )

wktu exam hari tu, boleh katekan la jgk aku stress la skit... tido lmbt, bgn awl... sminggu sblm tu minggu trial exam n quiz... x dinafikanla... sakit jgk jiwa aku time tu.... huh, mental torture la jgk (ye arr... dua minggu yg penuh dgn test...) :-p markah pun, hmm... :-( so, memandangkan aku ade pakar kaunselor terbaik dunia kat umah, so citer to my sis... sok sek sok sek pnjg la gak dgn die... lepas drpd tu aku jd mcm lain skit (org kate la, aku rse biase je)... study lebih skit arr (sbb dh tau x pandai kan mrkah pun gitu je)... tido lmbt bgn awl... bukan aku x jaga diri tp mmg jam biologi otak aku mcm tu, ske ati nk tido kol brape bgn kol brape... kalo ikut hati aku, aku tido je... tp dh x ngantuk and... mmg kene sacrifice sikitla kan bile fikir balik... so study je la... smpai habis exam mmg aku jd mcm tu (BUKAN PAKSAAN TAU)... tp aku ade perasan jgk, bkn waktu exam je tp wktu lain, bdk2 nie pndang aku smcm kdg2... aku pun ckp dlm hati "kenape, ade hantu ke blkg aku smpai korg pandang mcm tu" yg nelly... "ya allah..." aku pun tnye la "knp?" die tnye... "asal muka hang x bermaya smcm??" aku pun ckp la yg aku rse aku ok je... hmmm....

habis exam tu aku n farrah gi bilik guru nk pulangkan calculator cg zimah... p/s: haah, lupe la nk citer... 

wktu esok nk exam math hari rabu n physc khamis... boleh plak mlm tu calculator aku buat lawak kambing... TETIBA HILANG!!!

WOII MAAKKK OOOIIII!!! TERKENCH-slash-PANIC GIIILLLOS KOT AKU!!!! "CAMNE AKU NK WAT NIE YUN???!!!! CAMNE PLAK CALCULATOR AKU TETIBA GHAIB NIE!!!??" die tnye camne hilang, aku ckp arr, aku rse aku bwk balik lps habis chem tu pastu mmg aku x bwk kuar dh lps tu... hmm... sampai ke sudah x jumpa, merata kot aku explore dh mcm dora the explorer dh aku rse, bukan dora... nad the explorer... ok, sudah, berhenti mengarut... mungkin cicir kot... patutla instinct aku mengatakan bwk balik 2 calculator wkti cuti puasa hari tu, hmmm nk wat mcm mane... bubur jd sup... hohoh... so, in the nutshell, i'd to borrow teacher's calculator... nasib diorg baik nk bg pinjam... huhuhu...

berbalik kpd balik dgn farrah, kitorg balik dorm trus... mmg spnjg perjlnn tu aku rse mcm nk tido... balik tu lepak jap sementara tggu azan zohor... dh solat pastu diorg sume balik, aku gi kat cermin baru aku perasan muka aku mcm mana sbnrnya mggu tu... (yela sblm nie aku tiup2 tudung je, pin segala bagai pastu bla... bkn jenis yg ske mengamati muka sndiri lame2 kat cermin la katekan, bedak pun x pakai) dan reaksi aku...

okayy... agk bodoh la jgk bile ingat balik psl terkejut tgk muka sendiri... hohoh... eyebag aku obvious gile kot... dah mcm panda boleh x???!!! 

over... ok, hyperbolic sgt.... x de la hitam putih tp nmpk sgt la obvious mcm signboard kt highway... mcm lebam pun ade gak... aku trus gi jumpe nawwar... "nawwar, sumpah muka aku mcm nie ke selama ni??" die pun senyum je kt aku "ko tau x aku tgk ko nie dh mcm zombie ko tau x... dgn x bermaya nye..." aku pun... err... ok.. kkayy... so that's how i look in examination week... and it's awful enough... seriously...

x lame lps tu aku bukak fb... ade kwn aku nie ckp mcm nie... lebih kurang la... dia kate, pemerhatian die utk mggu exam nie sume kwn kwn die stress wktu buat revision, muka yg slalu senyum pun dh masam... aku bace mcm... okkayy, mkn dlm la jgk, bkn makan dlm, kalo kat tgb ckp mkn bawang kat dlm... pedih bhaii... tp, once aku bace tu aku snyum je sbb bile fikir balik... betul sgt ape yg kwn aku tu ckp... dan mmg patut pun aku terase sbb aku salah sorg drpd tu bile ingat balik ape yg nawwar citer psl aku spnjg dua mggu nie... nawwar kate bdk2 nie kdg2 tnye die knp dgn aku... tp dh name pun kwn dh nk msk 3 thn... 2 thn clssmate kt tgb, mmg dia pahamlakan... so, credit to 

1. my family especially my COOLEST-YET-CRAZY-A LIL BIT FIERCE KAK NGAH: thanks for hearing my thought, crazy-clumsy-stupid-prob story... (heh)

2. nawwar: thanks for being my super-goofy-crazy-a lot more-good friend as you be there when i need your shoulder

3. farrah mursyid: thanks for panic skali dgn aku n try nk tngkan aku bile aku nk start nangis

3. syasya wani: thanks for teman aku berlari lari cari cg ika... huhu...
4. khaulah nubla: thanks for calming me from letting me 'flooding' the chem tuto class
5. awatief Zaid: thanks for asking my condition and also calming me during the chem tuto class

6. azizi arbain: thanks for forcing me changing my smiley in the message because you said it's ugly enough... (mmg betul pun, buruk gile kot...)

7. afiq aris: thanks for your opinion-slash-advice cause it's bang in my head... (w/pun bace lps exam dh habis)

infinity number. others, thanks for being my really-very-good friend

by the way, selamat hari raya... maaf zahir batin.... minta maaf dari hujung tudung sampai hujung stokin (bru sedap skit bunyi) semua salah silap sbb dok keje kacau-menyusahkan korg selalu... :-D 

ok, that's long enough... x de sape nk bace.... heheh... 

Love you, Lillahi Taa'la... :-) 

Assalamualaikum...

Sincerely,

She-with-no-name

The "HEAT" of Ramadhan...

Assalamualaikum...

WOW!!!! The most blessed month has arrived!!!!!! yeppy!!! dude, seriously... when its comes to ramadhan, i could feel the excitement you know, the joy... of making "the great scene" in order to search for Allah's pleasure... :-) btw, selamat berpuasa kpd semua muslimin dan muslimat sekalian, moga mendpt keberkatan di bulan yg hebat-mulia ini... jangan sia siakan peluang nie...

ganjaran terhebat hanya boleh didpti di bulan ini... pastikan kita CELEBRATE lebih drpd bulan2 yg lain, sbb kita x tau kita akn berpeluang menghadiri konsert selama 30 hari ini terutamanya 10 yg terakhir... :-) 

Pastikan anda berhibur lebih pd bulan yg penuh barakah ini

"Sesungguhnya cinta kpdMu itu lebih baik drpd apa yg ada di atas muka bumi... Maka, kau tetapkanlah cinta ini terhadapMu... Amin..." 

Petikan doa seorg hamba Allah

p/s: learn something today from fb that afraid me the most from then till now, so guys and girls...

" Ya Allah, Kau lindungilah hatiku ini drpd bisikan syaitan laknatullah..."

Petikan doa seorg hamba Allah

Love you Lillahi Taa'la...

Assalamualaikum...

Sincerely,

She-with-no-name

The beginning...

Assalamualaikum...

hehe... i know with the troll face for the beginning it might creep the others up (sorry)... :-)  Ok, i'm just a beginner blogger so i don't have any time yet to write something merapu.... (yet still just jotted down what i'm thinking right now... thehehe)... ok, let me tell you something that i'm just a low-simple-yet-maniac-but-still-normal student and i'm just writing for fun...

it is the fact that i don't have any update yet, so that can be waited... for now, it's just some sort of busy day... (untungla kat utp, dgr citer dari fakhrul azizi bak katenyer melalui twitter " hari isnin je aku busy, hari lain relax je"...) amboiiiii... patutla boleh upload sampai 4 cover bruno mars... sabar je la aku... but when it comes to the pre-u student.. yup, babe.... you have study like hell... (ok, not exactly like hell) but it is seriously-damn-complicated studying process... (ok, that's hyperbolic) x pe, untuk berjaya kena push sikit and sacrifice something... utk awl2 jatuh bangun perkara biasa, mane boleh nk expect, PAP!!! maths, chem, bio & physics quiz 100% kan?? I was also experiencing the same thing... kalau kite x jatuh, macam mane kita nk tau salah kat mane, macam mane nak belajar dari sudut yang lain...? untuk diorg yg mmg pandai, dpt marks mcm tu lain citer, but from the other side, he or she have the other side of weakness as us... nobody's perfect guys... kalau rase nak menangis, menangis je, laki ke perempuan x kisah pun... x salah but it's just one thing, DON'T GIVE UP!!! so, for my friend yg sedang sambung belajar kat luar sane (lagi lagi yg green leaf baru masuk mcm saya nie) bersabarlah dlm menuntut ilmu, baby yg baru berjalan pun tertatih tatih lg... apatah lagi kite yg sdg menuntut ilmu yg baru... itu yg lebih baik... :-) the most important is jgn lupa Allah, jgn lupa diri and doa byk byk spy dipermudahkan segala urusan...

my quotes for you guys and girls ( saya x ckp ini effective utk sume org ek...)

"held your head high to overcome all the circumstances... the best of happiness comes from the determination for overcoming all the hurdles in front of you... :-)" 

kalo Allah timpakan sesuatu kat kite, maksudnye Dia ingat kite dan nk uji kite yg kite nie ingat x kat Dia... so, mengadu kpdNya, itu yg terbaik... 

"Allah x uji hambaNya melainkan dgn kesanggupannya"

Surah Al-Baqarah

so, guys and girls, held your held high... be strong for your brightest-luxurious future...

sekian, that's it for today... (continuing for my hectic-lifestyle)

Assalamualaikum...

sincerely,

She-with-no-name

p/s: sorry kalo a little bit boring... tunggu bulan puasa nnti tau.. nk promote my mom-made cake... hihhii...